Difficult to meet up with 〜づらい

Grammar Explanation: Difficult to do with 〜づらい

After recovering from over-dieting, Miku quickly gained back the weight she had lost. She receives a text message from her boyfriend, Shibutani, about scheduling time to meet up between their summer classes, but she turns him down.

みく:: 「ごめんね渋谷(しぶたに)」; “I'm sorry, Shibutani.”; 「なんかやっぱり会(あ)いづらい…」; “It's still difficultto meet with you...”; 「また太(ふと)っちゃって」; “I've put on weight again...”

Key Points

会いづらい means emotionally hard to meet
- 会(あ)いづらい is not about scheduling or physical difficulty here.
- Miku feels awkward meeting him because she regained weight.
なんかやっぱり makes the confession hesitant
- なんか softens the statement, while やっぱり shows the feeling remains after thinking it over.
- Together they make her refusal sound conflicted.
The next line gives the reason
- また太(ふと)っちゃって explains why meeting feels hard.
- 〜ちゃって suggests the weight gain is an unwelcome result.