Difficult to meet up with 〜づらい

Grammar Explanation: Difficult to do with 〜づらい

After recovering from over-dieting, Miku quickly gained back the weight she had lost. She receives a text message from her boyfriend, Shibutani, about scheduling time to meet up between their summer classes, but she turns him down.

みく:: 「ごめんね渋谷(しぶたに)」; “I'm sorry, Shibutani.”; 「なんかやっぱり会(あ)いづらい…」; “It's still difficult to meet with you...”; Literal: “Somehow, as expected, it's difficult to meet...”; 「また太(ふと)っちゃって」; “I've put on weight again...”

Key Points

1会いづらい means emotionally hard to meet

会(あ)いづらい is not about scheduling or physical difficulty here.
Miku feels awkward meeting him because she regained weight.

2なんかやっぱり makes the confession hesitant

なんか softens the statement, while やっぱり shows the feeling remains after thinking it over.
Together they make her refusal sound conflicted.

3The next line gives the reason

また太(ふと)っちゃって explains why meeting feels hard.
〜ちゃって suggests the weight gain is an unwelcome result.